I was upset with God on that winter day in 1995. Things were not panning out quite the way I expected them to happen, not even close. I was thousands of dollars in debt, my friends had for the most part deserted me, and the woman who I thought would marry me didn’t even want to see me.
I sat by myself in that small upstairs apartment, near Iowa State University, reading a biography on John Lake’s life. As I turned the pages of the book, I decided to tell God exactly how I felt at that moment.
Standing up, I pointed my finger toward heaven. “Lord, I’m fed up with the way You’re running my life,” I said with foolish boldness. “In fact, I’m sick of it. If You’re the Creator of the Universe, why can’t You get me out of my problems in one day? Don’t You have enough power to do it by tomorrow? Or is Your arm too short? ”
I sat back down, quite satisfied with how I let God know my real feelings, and picked up the book again.
Much like it says in Acts 2:2 — And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind — God came into the room. His presence filled every part of the room with His holiness.
I dropped the book, fell to my knees on the floor, and wept. “O Lord, don’t kill me. Don’t kill me. Please don’t kill me,” I muttered over and over again.
You see, I knew I couldn’t live in that level of holiness for very long because of the sin in my life.
Then, the Lord spoke to my heart. “If I wanted to, I could deliver you out of your problems by tomorrow.”
“Yes, Lord, I believe that You could do that. Just don’t kill me.”
His heavy presence lifted off the room and eventually I stood up a changed man, much smaller in my own eyes than before that time.
This was an extreme example of God’s presence in my life, but interesting enough, it was God’s presence which came upon me as a young believer that drew me to love Him and desire to be with Him. And to be honest, if there is one thing that I hope I could somehow teach every believer: it would be to seek His presence.
The mountains melt like wax at the presence of the LORD, at the presence of the Lord of the whole earth. (Psalm 97:5)
(Continued in Part 2)
2 responses to “Mountains Melt at the Presence of God (Part 1)”
Excellent, Mr. Larry. There is nothing like being in His presence . God bless you!
Thanks. I love His presence. God bless you.