33 Years Ago Today, I Met the Man

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In 1985, my life smashed into a brick wall. I needed thousands of dollars to start a publishing company and bail my family out of debt. My sources were all maxed out and the hope level in my reservoir was hovering at empty. I was finished.

The only untouched asset I had was a $125,000 life insurance policy. So, my solution seemed obvious: suicide.

As for taking my life, I had no problems with it because I was an agnostic. No God equals no problems with eternal judgment, right? It wasn’t personal, just a business solution for my family and me.

My plan was uncomplicated. I figured on enjoying one last weekend with my family and then committing suicide on that Monday evening.

Thus, on May 20, 1985, I spent the day finishing up loose ends. Then, for some reason, I stopped at an insurance agent’s office. Although we knew each other, Bill and I were not intimate friends and had never really talked to each other before that day.

Bill invited me into his office. We discussed baseball. Then in the middle of our conversation, he stared at me and said, “You’re thinking about committing suicide, aren’t you?”

His words hit me like a sledgehammer. How did he know? I told no one. It was my secret $125,000 payday. I was speechless. As I sat there, a vision played across my mind about my car ramming into a viaduct and killing me.

I wept and although I tried to regain my composure, I could not. “How did you know?” I asked.

“Oh,” said Bill, “the Lord told me while we were talking to each other.”

His words shattered my unbelief. God was alive and He cared about me. We continued talking and he finally gave me a book to read: Power in Praise by Merlin Carothers.

When I arrived home, I began reading the book. After a few pages, I walked into the bathroom, closed the door and knelt in front of the sink. Looking into the mirror, I prayed, “Jesus, I’ve tried everything else and nothing has worked. I guess I’ll give You a try.”

Instantly, I was changed. Fear and shame were no longer a part of me, but instead, joy and hope filled my heart. Bowing and worshipping my new King, I promised to never let go of His hand.

If my story were a fictional Hollywood movie, perhaps it would resemble It’s A Wonderful Life. Jimmy Stewart would play me and Donna Reed my wife. The angel would get his wings and everyone would live happily ever after. The end.

But sadly, my life has not been a work of fiction. It has been a day to day journey, filled with a few good experiences, but also many mistakes, false starts and failures. Divorce. Loss of friends. Numerous firings from sales positions. Low-paying jobs. Poverty. Rejection. Loneliness. Not exactly, a picture perfect Christian life.

And yet, it has been in the deepest valleys where the Lord has truly revealed Himself to me. It was there He became my loving Father and I learned His grace was sufficient for me.

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Harry Truman and the Jewish Haberdasher

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My new weekly column entitled, “Harry Truman and the Jewish Haberdasher,”can be read by clicking here.

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Inside Israel

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The Shuk in Jerusalem

Once again, it’s time to hear from our sister in Jerusalem about what she is witnessing there as a believer in Yeshua. Put your prayer shawls on and pray for Israel and Sister J. Now here she is —

May the Lord be glorified.

It is 2:30 am and I should be asleep.  I need to work tomorrow, Sunday, Jerusalem Day, and I love to write about Jerusalem and Jerusalem Day in particular. But this prayer request is pressing me to write.  Perhaps prayer request is the wrong word – it is more of a call to pray!

 I told you that this week would possibly be pivotal here and for all of the Middle East and the world.  You probably know by now that Israel struck some 70 mostly Iranian bases in Syria this week after 20 missiles from Syria were fired at us.  It was a major confrontation.  That was Thursday.

  On Friday was the continuation of the Hamas Gaza “days of rage” dubbed “the march of return.” It has gained momentum because of much false news reporting. 

TUESDAY 15TH OF MAY (please note that we are some 8-12 hours ahead of North America according to the clock) the call has gone out to Palestinians and their supporters worldwide to come to the borders of Israel and storm them…tear them down.  This Friday saw some 15,000 rioters at the borders causing fires, even setting their own gas pipe line on fire, along the fence and setting wheat fields in Israel aflame using kites with incendiaries attached into Israel. 

 I understand that there are gatherings at the borders of Lebanon and possibly Jordan as well.  Also within the Hamas-run Palestinian cities in Judea and Samaria there is definitely the strong possibility of participation.  

 The 15th of May is called by the Palestinians –Nakba Day (catastrophe day). They call it a day of rage that commemorates the birth of the modern State of Israel according to the Gregorian Calendar.  Hamas has fanned it into a major day over the past 10 years. 

 So today, Sunday 13th of May is Jerusalem Day.

Tomorrow, Monday the 14th of May, is the day that the US Embassy is formally opening in Jerusalem.

Tuesday the 15th of May is the day set to be “the mother of all days of rage” with the storming of the borders of Israel from all sides and within led by the Gaza Hamas leadership.

Wednesday the 16th of May begins the month of the Ramadan fast.

 “The burden of the word of the Lord against Israel. Thus says the Lord, who stretches out the heavens, lays the foundation of the earth, and forms the spirit of man within him:  “Behold, I will make Jerusalem a cup of drunkenness to all the surrounding peoples, when they lay siege against Judah and Jerusalem.   And it shall happen in that day that I will make Jerusalem a very heavy stone for all peoples; all who would heave it away will surely be cut in pieces, though all nations of the earth are gathered against it.  In that day,” says the Lord, “I will strike every horse with confusion, and its rider with madness;…” ZECHARIAH 12:1-3 (of course, great promises follow this section)

There is NO FEAR, and surely without a doubt, we have many promises that HE WILL BE GLORIFIED and that ALL OF ISRAEL SHALL BE SAVED.  But we also see that many, many things will first happen and many waters will be passed through. 

 BUT HE HAS TOLD US TO PRAY. AND TO WATCH AND PRAY.  Habakkuk prayed without apology “Oh Lord, in wrath remember mercy.”  It is time to pray the scriptures on our faces.

 PLEASE enter your closets and pray before Him Who hears, those of you who are called as watchmen for the Lord on the walls of Jerusalem.  I believe that we are entering that time.  

In my take of things, we are a body, but individually all rather little and simple.  We are not called to leave the battle to the spiritual giants whoever they are, but to each do our part.  It is not up to us to decide how small and insignificant it is.  I think of the disciples told to feed the multitude and they said, “Lord! I have NOTHING! Only this small insignificant amount!,” but HE took it…HE blessed it …HE broke it…and it was MORE THAN ENOUGH.  

Each of us has our portion. Be it big guns or a piece of bread and a small fish.  We can pray…even a little. 

 As I said, I felt that this call to prayer had to go out now I hope that we see no need ultimately. I will now try to sleep.  May The Lord be glorified on the borders of Israel and in Jerusalem…and in each of us!

 Lovingly, a sister in Jerusalem.

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The Day My Mom Told Off the Police Chief

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Prayers for America (5/10/2018)

The United States moves its embassy in Israel to Jerusalem next week in defiance of the Palestinians and most of the world, likely further heightening tensions at a time of tumult in the region.

US President Donald Trump is set to make good on his pledge in December when he broke with decades of precedent and recognised the disputed city as Israel’s capital to global outcry.

The embassy inauguration due to take place Monday caps his decision but comes at a particularly fevered time, after weeks of deadly protests and clashes along the Gaza Strip’s border with Israel. (Rest of article can be seen here.)

My prayer today:

Lord, I pray for Your peace to rest upon Jerusalem and for Your blessings to fall upon President Trump for his boldness in moving the U.S. Embassy to Jerusalem. May Your Spirit continue to strengthen President Trump’s resolve to defy world opinion by his backing of Israel. (Based on Psalm 122:6)

What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you today?

Join with me on Thursdays to fast and pray for America.

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Prayer for LGBT Believers (5/8/2018)

How would you answer this question? Which group is the smallest, most rejected minority in our country?

African-Americans have certainly suffered terribly through our history…Perhaps it is Native Americans?…What about the LGBT community?…

Ironically, the group that can lay claim to being the smallest and most rejected minority in America today once was part of the LGBT community. They once identified as gay or lesbian or bisexual or transgender, but they no longer do. Today, they are “ex-gay” or “ex-trans.”

Their numbers are very small, since they came out of a small community to start with. And it is only a small percentage of that small group who make a break with the rest of the LGBT community.

Most of them make that break because of their religious faith, often newly found.

(Smallest and Most Rejected Minority in America by Dr. Michael Brown, columnist at WND.com. The entire column can be seen here.)

My prayer today:

Lord, help us not despise the day of small beginnings in seeing people delivered from LGBT lifestyles, but help us to increase our faith and efforts, knowing that You came to set the captives free and destroy the works of the Devil. (Based on   Zechariah 4:10, Luke 4:10 and 1 John 3:8)

What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you today?

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When God Set Me Free from Hating America

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