Swimming Upstream: “Dreaming Big? Plan On Dying First!”

Burt Prelutsky said, “I don’t pay for other people’s ideas. I steal them.” So, with that in mind, the idea for this article was gently swiped from Stuff Christians Like #506. Kudos to Burt and Prodigal John!

About fifteen years ago, I began everyday by praying something like this: “Father, send me. Place me on a street corner preaching the gospel in LA or Rwanda or somewhere, but send me.”

After a while, a prophetess showed up at my place and proclaimed, “The Lord doesn’t want you asking to be sent out preaching for the next thirty days. Instead, He has something else for you to do first. Then, you can ask again.”

I obeyed the prophecy and sought the Lord on what He wanted me to do. It seemed He wanted me to be a painting contractor.

And within thirty days, I was in the biggest trial of my life. One that destroyed my reputation, my finances, and me. I lost all of my friends and my ministry. Like Job, I spent the days weeping and bemoaning my birth. The only thing that kept me going was the understanding that the Father loved me and His grace. The following verse became my hope:

I would have lost heart unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. (Psalm 27:13)

Now, after all these years, I know what the Lord actually meant when the prophetess said, “He has something else for you to do first.” He wanted me to die first; and He had the perfect plan to achieve His desire for me.

I’d like to say that I died easily. No mess. No fuss. No bother. But it was a slow, agonizing death. When death happened in part of me, another part would be revived and attempted to climb out of the grave. Then, that part would be dealt with by the Lord. All of this took time. Lots of it.

And yet, this morning, I finally obeyed the second part of the prophecy. “Lord, send me.”

Swimming Upstream appears at this blog site on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. It’s  a little of this and a little of that, all written  to encourage and exhort believers in their Christian jouneys.


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2 responses to “Swimming Upstream: “Dreaming Big? Plan On Dying First!”

  1. Really hit home Larry,I was thinking this a.m.,9yrs.ago we began a public ministry.[we had always been the ones who assisted others] We were in such a place of faith, we thought,with in a few yrs.,we would need a large building. I had my eye on one an old armory,what better place to equip an army. It was near the highway,I had an idea,we would need one of those spot lights,like they at one time used,for events. Well last year it was like every thing fell apart,and we lost the place we had rented for 8 yrs,along with a lot of the congregation. We have held meetings in our home since and, well…. Any way this a.m., I remembered that dream,and I thought,’Lord I will be thankful if we are but a small candle,as long as we are Your light’. Pray for us. Thanks Larry, Cheryl

  2. Larry Who


    I read a story about a woman who was going through a horrendous trial. She was weeping and crying to God, “Why are you doing this to me, Lord?”

    Then, she heard the Lord say, “Child, I do this to everyone who wants to follow Me wholeheartedly.”

    She replied, “Well, I can see why not many want to do it!”

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