Swimming Upstream: “Ever Wonder Why God Saved You?”

Six months after my salvation, I wondered, why did the Lord save me?

If you’ve read my testimony you’d know that I was an agnostic, and my salvation happened on the day that I was planning on committing suicide.  Agnosticism plus suicide does not usually equal personal salvation unless the individual is somehow seeking after truth. And I wasn’t. I was seeking $50,000 for my publishing company. Period.

Why did the Lord save me?

This question really bugged me and I did what the Bible said to do: I asked the Lord and kept on asking. And asking. And asking.

Finally, one morning the Lord spoke to my heart. “I saved you because Mabel Raddemacher prayed and prayed for the stuttering twelve year-old boy who attended Bible Camp.”

Mabel Raddemacher, I thought to myself. Wasn’t she the religious nut that everyone made fun of? Stuttering? That was me. But twelve years old? Then I remembered what happened.

I attended Bible Camp as a twelve year-old boy. Like most kids, I liked the baseball and swimming parts of the camp, but was not overly enthused about the religious side. Then on the last night, we had a special bonfire where kids could give their lives to the Lord. I mumbled some words aloud, but in my mind I said, “I don’t want You Jesus. And I don’t ever want what these weak Christians have. Never!”

So, there you have it. I was an agnostic. I sought to commit suicide. I had rejected the gospel. I was not seeking the truth. And yet, the Lord swept all of my negatives aside and listened to the prayers of a godly woman.

How unbelievably wonderful is grace! How great is our Lord! And thank you Mabel Raddemacher.

…the effective prayer of a righteous man (or woman) can accomplish much. (James 5:16)

Swimming Upstream appears at this blog site on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. It’s  a little of this and a little of that, all written  to encourage and exhort believers in their Christian jouneys.


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12 responses to “Swimming Upstream: “Ever Wonder Why God Saved You?”

  1. Larry Who

    Just to let you know: Mabel Raddemacher is a fictitious name for the real woman who prayed for me. I did not have her permission for this article.

  2. So, let me get this straight, your god chose to save you and not all those other incredibly desperate sad people out there who commit suicide every day because some random woman prayed for you?

    Oh yeah, that sounds like a lovely god. I think I’ll go worship him right now.

  3. Larry Who


    Thanks for stopping by.

    I don’t have insight into the other suicides, just my own . Is someone praying for them? I hope so, but there again, I don’t know.

    But I have good news for you, I will be praying for you. Put a bull’s eye on your forehead and know that you are marked man for the Kingdom of God. Then, you can write a story like mine.

  4. Larry–Considering the fact that I was raised in the “Kingdom of God” and willfully left, I doubt a random stranger’s prayers will have any affect. But knowing as I do that such a statement comes from a place of love (my own family has said the same thing *many* times), I appreciate the thought. However, I’m perfectly content with my debaucherous lifestyle, thanks 😉

  5. Larry Who


    There again, I do not know your background or your experiences. Or even how you have been affected by other Christians. I can only state because of the grace placed on my life, partly because of Mabel’s prayers, that I am one of the most dogged, determined prayer warriors that you have ever met. I never give up on people.

    So, you might as well buy yourself a Bible. I like the NASB version, maybe you will, too. And you might as well look for a place for to bow your knees. Bathrooms are okay, or wherever. Because you have a call on your life to preach the gospel to the nations of the world as a prophet. Deliverance and healing will be a major part of your ministry.

    Like Jonah, you can run, but you can not hide from the awesome love of God. And it is His love that calls each of us to repent and accept Him.

    God bless you.

  6. lsbmusings

    Dear Wolfshowl,

    Just wanted you to know you’re now officially on my prayer list, too. God bless.

    Grace and peace,


  7. who can resist puting wolfshowl on their prayer list now???

    Hi Larry, this is the first time I’ve been able to spend any decent time on your site to get into dept on your work…. nice story, glad yours ends with cash, my experience, however, is the true gift besides salvation, is being a husband and father to your family and offering love and kindness to the community you live in. Not saying money isn’t a good payout, but I believe it to be a rare one. I too am glad you visited your insurance man. God rocks… cindy

  8. Larry Who


    Thanks for your comments.

  9. Larry Who


    Thanks for your comments.

    As far as my testimony goes, I write on the internet in quick readable formats. Everything in my testimony is true, but I do not always fill in all of the gaps with details.

    The $50,000 started the publishing company, which is still running today, but I ended up walking away from it and selling my stock to cover debts.

    I agree with your simplistic view that a man – like me – should be a good husband, a father and offer love and kindness to the community that he lives in. But…problems arise when God is working on you and your calling at the same time. Sort of like David, his wife, Michal, and King Saul. If David would have ignored his wife’s warnings, and stayed in the palace with Saul, would God have protected David? Yes. But David did listen, and he fled. And because he fled, David went through trial after trial after trial. But these trials made him into a great man of God and a great king of Israel.

    I’m no David, but the pressures were all that I could handle and still survive.

  10. I disagree… you ARE a David… David was still a man, still fallible… and to be honest, you don’t seem to be the scroundrel he tended to be.. but it’s not a contest God loves us all despite who we are.

    I meant no disrespect about the money, the gifts, I only show concern for others should they believe that if they just come to Christ, everything will gloriously be made better. As God can change everything for everyone, he still lets stuff happen in life, in the end, it seems to come out for the better… if a person chooses to persevere.

    I’ve seen too many people lose heart 5 years into a chronic illness or loss of a business, homes, and end up blaming God because they believed and he let it happen. Good christian’s live real lives like everyone else and I find the essence of your testimony is the fact that you chose to persevere, in Christ, that is the saving grace… and very beautiful indeed!!!

  11. Larry Who


    Good comments. Good clarification. I agree so much that I will write an article from your points.


  12. Larry,I loved this post.I too see people and wonder is there any one praying for them? I have known Who to turn to all of my life,there have been times,in my youth when I did not,turn to Him that is.When as an adult,I began to learn of Lordship,and began a deeper devotion in my life,I asked the same question.The Lord responded with one name my Grandmother,an angel of a woman.Add me to the list praying for a healing in Wolfie’s heart. Cheryl

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