It Ain’t Over Till the Fat Lady Sings!

I don’t run fast or jump high at sixty-five years of age, but the game is not over, at least, not until the fat lady sings over me.

But yet, how can a guy who has watched his youth slide down the drain over the last twenty-six years still possibly believe he will accomplish anything for the kingdom of God? After all, he’s been nothing but a failure so far. What’s changed for him?

My journey began a few weeks after my salvation in 1985 when I felt the Holy Spirit speak to my heart that I would be a writer and own a publishing company. Since that moment, I have focused myself on achieving that goal. Whether I worked as a maintenance man fixing toilets in a motel or as a delivery man for a pizzeria, I thought of myself as a writer and a publisher. To me, the jobs were nothing more than temporary bridges to my real career.

Reality Check #1: To date, I have no books printed or published nor do I have any other authors under contract for my (in name only) publishing company.

On December 24, 1993, I was going through the motions of spending time in prayer before heading off to be with my family for Christmas. But as I waited on the Lord, I had a vision.

In it, I saw thousands and thousands of starving children in Africa. They were screaming at the top of their lungs because of their painful hunger. The mothers held the children and the fathers stood next to them. All of the parents stared at me with pleading eyes…would I help them? Please!

The screams echoed in my ears and pierced my heart. I fell to my knees and wept so much I thought the anguish would swallow me up.

Then, the screams stopped, and the vision disappeared into a total blackness. As I caught my breath, the Holy Spirit said, “They don’t cry much after three days.”

After that, I wept even more. (Later I learned that when starving children quit crying, the process is almost irreversible. They just slowly, passively die.)

When the vision ended, the Holy Spirit directed me to start a paint contracting company so that I could help the poor and hungry. I agreed.

Reality Check #2: My first experience as a painting contractor was a total failure. It ended with me hearing the Lord speak to my heart on July 8, 1994, “Son, you have been deceived.” (This is chronicled under #6 of my teachings.) All other attempts at being a painting contractor have been little more than stopgap fingers in our leaky financial dams.

Reality Check #3: To date, I have given just pennies to help the poor and the hungry.

So, what’s changed for me?

But He replied to them, “When it is evening, you say, ‘It will be fair weather, for the sky is red.’ And in the morning, ‘There will be a storm today, for the sky is red and threatening.’ Do you know how to discern the appearance of the sky, but cannot discern the signs of the times?” (Matthew 16: 2-3)

The season of my life has changed. How do I know? I discerned it. This does not mean you can notice a difference in me, but I feel a new drumbeat, one which tells me it’s time to stand up and move.

In the weeks ahead, I will relate more about what’s happening in my life now, rather than always looking at the past.


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12 responses to “It Ain’t Over Till the Fat Lady Sings!

  1. It sounds like you may be having an experience similar to Abraham/Sarah…

    I can also relate to that myself!

    Spring is the season of renewal so my prayer is that God
    still has plans for a couple of old dogs like us!

    Be Well!

  2. Solveig Engh

    Oh, this is exciting. Not very different from the vision the Lord gave me–and I’m older than you! Impossible, and I can’t imagine how it will come about. But I believe God is somehow in it.

    Anyway, I’m eager to hear more on the subject.

  3. Altonwoods,

    Thanks. We old dogs may not be able to chew on bones the way we used to, but if nothing else, we’ll gum them to pieces.

  4. Solveig,

    I once heard a big-name prophet say, “The next move of God will be by the youth.” I wanted to scream, “Not so!”

  5. Jan

    I love it when God gives us a vision. I’m excited to see what He has planned for you.

  6. I’m on the edge of my seat. I need to hear this. Thank you!

  7. Somehow there is a resolve that was not there before. With me, I think my aspirations for God – before – were thrown in with all my other aspirations. I still think God must surely just sit back and cross His arms and say, ‘Well, we’ll just have to wait a few years for him to get all that out of his system’. I appreciate His patience. I am aware that I pushed way too far. Hope to make it up in the end. We’ll journey together.

  8. Jan, Deb and Mike,

    Thanks. One thing I can say that I have learned over the last eighteen years is the Lord believes endurance is an important characteristic for us believers to have.

  9. Having been with you on the day in 1985, it does my old heart good to see that you have not lost your fire. Keep the vision, my friend.

  10. Bill,

    Thanks. The one thing I haven’t lost over the years is my passion for Jesus. It burns as bright today as twenty-six years ago.

  11. Larry ,this fat lady ain’t singin one note. I’m with you Bro.
    I’ve heard those same ones speak those words. Hear that song ‘We Are the Joshua Generation’.
    Joshua, had to be at least 60 yrs old,when he began to lead.He serves Moses faithfully, for 40 yrs.
    A Joshua generation, is going to be the ones who have been in the desert,for a generation, listening, learning, preparing.
    They will lead those young , strong, passion-filled youth. The ones who have neen taught enough to heed ,and follow that Joshua Generation.
    1 John 2:12-14, Malachi 4:6 Cheryl

  12. Cheryl,

    Right on, I agree with you.

    One of my favorite cartoon sketches shows a father calling a stock brokerage firm about buying stock in the late 1990’s. An enthusiastic young broker answers the phone and is ready to take an order. The father asks, “What happens if the stock goes down?”

    The young broker replies, “Stocks never go down. They always go up.”

    The father says, “Are there any older brokers there, ones who were selling stocks in the early 1980’s? I’d like to talk to them.”

    Youth may have energy and enthusiasm, but usually, they lack the wisdom of an older person, especially one who has survived good times and bad.

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