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My Journey Out (Part 4)

A Rerun Updated Series

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3.

David Yonggi Cho, pastor of the world’s largest church with 830,000 members, was once asked a question during an interview by a magazine. “Will America ever have a church as large as Yoido Full Gospel Church?”

“No,” he replied, “Americans are not willing to spend the time in prayer that such a large undertaking would require.”

Though this interview took place twenty years ago, Cho’s answer still bugs me today. Not that his words were wrong, but rather, they irritate me because they accurately describe us American Christians.

You see, Pastor Cho’s church has prayer meetings where 300,000 people get together and pray for hours. (The number would even be higher if the various satellite sites had room for more people.)

The median church size in America is 75 members. Now, let’s say a pastor of one of these median-sized churches decides to start prayer meetings, how many people can he expect to show up each week? Three or four; maybe five. And even this small number will most likely tail dwindle away over a period of time.

And of course, there are exceptions. But for every praying church, there are scores of churches who have no prayer meetings at all.

In the 1990′s, I joined a prayer team at a church. After the services, the prayer team members gathered at the front of the church to pray for attendees who needed prayer.

Though  new to the church, it was not long before most knew I had a prophetic voice. And each week, the line in front of me grew longer and longer until finally, most of the other prayer team members stood around, watching me pray for people.

The pastor did his best to encourage people to receive prayer from the other team members, but most people shook their heads and said, “No, we’ll wait for Larry.”

One Sunday, I looked at the long line of people awaiting prayer from me, and a revelation smacked me along the side of my head: “We are doing church wrong!”

So, maybe you’d say, “Wait a moment. Prophecy is for the common good of the Body, right? Shouldn’t you give words to everyone who needs them?”

Yes, I’m called to give prophetic words to people.  But at the same time, I’m called to help equip believers to do the work of service … not do the work for them.

Sadly, our traditional church system has trained people to sit and expect the so-called professionals to do the ministering for them. You know, the clergy versus the lay people system.

And let me tell you, this does not please Jesus because on account of this reasoning, we have a weak, dependent Church. One that is a sitting duck, waiting to be blown out of its pews by possible calamities hitting our nation in the near future.

(Continued in Part 5)


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Thank God for Women, But … (Part 11)

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9 and Part 10.

Once again, as a reminder: when Jesus walked in His earthly ministry,  He was the living word who only did what the Father showed Him and only spoke what the Father told Him.

Do directors of Broadway plays stand back and allow the cast to do whatever each member wants to do? Or do symphony conductors allow the musicians to play their instruments according to each musician’s personal interpretation?

Of course not! Directors and conductors are the hands-on leaders in charge who decide how plays and symphonies will be done.

In like manner, the heavenly Father is a hands-on director and conductor who orchestrates events, happenings and lives on earth so that His kingdom and plans are constantly moving forward throughout all of the ages. Okay?

Soon afterward, He began going from one city and village to another, preaching and proclaiming the the kingdom of God. The twelve were with Him, and also some women who had been healed of evil spirits and sicknesses: Mary who was called Magdalene, from whom seven demons had gone out, and Joanna the wife of Chuza, Herod’s steward and Susanna, and many others who were contributing to their support out of their private means. (Luke 8: 1-3)

When He was in Galilee, they [women] used to follow Him and minister to Him; and there were many other women who came up with Him to Jerusalem. (Mark 15:41)

I have skipped over these scriptures with a yawn and a “ho-hum” for twenty-five years, never once noticing anything significant about them… until now.

Why did these crowds of women follow Jesus?

Yes, some had been delivered from demonic oppression. Yes, some had been healed. And maybe, all were entranced by His teaching and preaching.

But still, why did these women follow Jesus?

No one can come to Me unless the Father who sent Me draws him; and I willl raise him up on the last day. (John 6: 44)

The Greek word helko which is translated into our English word draw in the above verse actually is a metaphor which really means: led or drawn by an inner power.

Thus, the women who supported Jesus’ ministry with their finances and ministered to Him were led by the Father to do so.

So, why did the Father specifically choose women to do this?

(Continued in Part 12)

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My Journey Out (Part 3)

An Updated Rerun Series

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1 and Part 2.

“Too much pastoring in the church.”

The Holy Spirit’s words stunned me, but at the same time, they instilled a desire to understand more about the pastor’s calling. So, I began studying the Bible.

Did you know the word pastor is only mentioned once in the New Testament?

And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers (Ephesians 4:11)

The Greek word poimen (Strongs #4166) which is translated pastor in the above verse is also mentioned seventeen other times in the New Testament, but in all of those verses, it is translated into the English word shepherd(s).

A verb derivative of poimen, the Greek Word poimano (Strongs #4165), is mentioned ten times in various verses, but is translated in the King James Version into the English words feed or rule.

Now let’s say, that a Bible somehow landed in the hands of a linguistic expert who lived on Mars. After studying the Old and New Testaments, he then convinced his government to capture an American Christian out of the traditional church system and bring him back to Mars.

Of course, the Mars expert would then question the captured Christian.  And being a knowledgeable believer, the Christian would have done quite well, explaining Jesus, the Gospel and the New Birth.

But when the Christian would have attempted to explain the church and our modern CEO-like pastor, the Mars expert would have most likely blinked his eyes in unbelief.

“Hey, are you sure that you haven’t got the Old Testament and the New Testament mixed up?” he might have asked.

Then, the Christian would have blinked his eyes in amazement. To his scriptural reasoning, the traditional church and our modern CEO-like pastor are so obvious that he can not explain it to others. Maybe, he would have thrown his hands up in the air and said, “That’s just the way it is, okay?”

The captured Christian could have been me. Because when I began studying the calling of pastor, I looked through the lens of all the teachers who had been my instructors since I had been saved, which was about ten years.

A pupil is not above his teacher; but everyone, after he has been fully trained, will be like his teacher. (Luke 6:40)

Admittedly, I am resistant to change. I like to walk on the paths of our church forefathers, men like Martin Luther, John Calvin, John Wesley, D. L. Moody, Smith Wigglesworth and so forth who have been a part of the traditional church system. This seemed to be the well-tread path of safety, right?

So, what has caused me to veer off onto old, hardly visible paths?

(Continued in Part 4)

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Thank God for Women, But… (Part 10)

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8 and Part 9.

As a reminder: when Jesus walked in His earthly ministry,  He was the living word who only did what the Father showed Him and only spoke what the Father told Him.

Let’s say that a friend bangs on your door with his fists and keeps on knocking until you open the door. After you finally open the door, the friend exclaims, “Come quickly! My brother is dying and you’re the only person who can help him!”

What would you do? Probably, if you are like me, you would go with the friend, right?

Jesus was thrust into a similar situation, but how did He react?

Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. So when He heard that he [Lazarus] was sick, He then stayed two days longer in the place where He was. (John 11: 5 – 6)

Jesus ignored the desperate pleas and continued His stay in Jerusalem. Then, a couple of days later, Jesus decided to head to Bethany to help His friend, Lazarus, who was now stone-cold dead.

When Jesus came near Bethany, He stopped a short way off and waited. Two women, Martha and Mary, approached Him. And both sisters spoke the same opening lines to the Lord.

…”Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. (John 11: 21, 32)

Now comes the grave-opening difference between the two sisters’ discourses with the Lord.

The first woman, Martha, said all of the right things and acted like a proper lady, but walked away empty handed. At best, she had a little more head knowledge than when she first met with Jesus.

Then, the second woman, Mary, approached Jesus.

Therefore, when Mary came where Jesus was, she saw Him, and fell at His feet, saying to Him, “Lord if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” When Jesus therefore saw her weeping, and the Jews who came with her also weeping, He was deeply moved in spirit and was troubled. (John 11: 32 – 33)

Mary not only said the right words, but  she also acted out her love for Jesus. She worshipped Him; and this act of adoration moved Jesus to raise Lazarus from the dead.

When He had said these things, He cried out with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come forth.” The man who had died came forth… (John 11: 43 – 44)

Now, who can stir men to do things? And why did the Father orchestrate this particular incident?

(Continued in Part 11)

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My Journey Out (Part 2)

An Updated Rerun Series

Click on following link for earlier article: Part 1.

If you have read my two series, It’s Your Decision…Run or Fight! and Sifting Through The Ashes of A Spiritual Defeat, then you know that 1994 was not one of those years Frank Sinatra sang about in his hit song. It was not a very good year. In fact,  it was an absolutely, miserable one for me.

And 1995 was not much better.

By early summer, I was just looking for a back pew in a church where I could hang out, keep quiet, and hopefully, put myself back together again. My life and calling were disaster zones.

A church, thirty miles away, seemed to be the answer to my prayers. The pastor was a man with a shepherd’s heart. Its congregation was around seventy or eighty members in size and fun to be around. The worship music was awesome. And the meetings were informally held in a school gymnasium.

It seemed the perfect fit for me.

Though giving prophetic words was not what I hoped to be doing, I knew the Lord used me on good days and bad days as a prophetic voice. So, to be safe, I went up to the pastor after the first service.

“Do you have any rules about giving prophetic words at your church?” I asked him.

He smiled and shook his head. “No, we don’t,” he said. “We encourage people to give prophetic words.”

Over the following four weeks, I broke every rule he said that he did not have. Each Sunday, he was upset with me about something.

“You said there were no rules,” I whispered in exasperation one time.

“That was before I knew you,” he exclaimed. “And I’ve never met anyone like you in my thirty years of ministry.”

Finally, we met for lunch, hoping to settle our differences. It’s not that we didn’t like each other or anything like that. It’s just that he was comfortable with prophetic BB guns and I was an AK-47 assault rifle. We were miles apart in our prophetic thinking.

“Listen,” he said toward the end of our conversation, “why don’t you just submit yourself under my ministry. Then, when the Lord tells me to release you into full-time prophetic ministry, I will let you know. All of the doors of our denomination will then be open to you.”

“What if you don’t hear the Lord’s voice for my calling and life?” I asked.

He blinked. “I had not thought about that,” he replied with his eyes looking down.

The meeting ended with us giving each other hugs and going our separate ways.

The next day, I received a letter in the mail from a member of the church who was not even aware of my meeting with the pastor. She wrote that I was rebellious and needed to submit myself under pastoral authority. And if I failed to follow her so-called godly counsel, she felt my prophetic calling would never come forth. As in never, ever!

I was upset and did what Hezekiah did when he received a letter from an enemy of Israel. I walked around, reading the letter to the Lord.

“Lord, she says I’m rebellious and that I need to submit under pastoral authority. I don’t even understand pastoral authority, what is it?” I went on and on until finally I had finished.

Then I heard the Holy Spirit say, “Too much pastoring in the church.”

(Continued in Part 3)

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Thank God for Women, But… (Part 9)

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7 and Part 8.

Just as a reminder: when Jesus walked in His earthly ministry,  He was the living word who only did what the Father showed Him and only spoke what the Father told Him.

Now, with our memories refreshed, let’s look at a New Testament incident which we have heard over and over again.

The scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman caught in adultery and having set her in the center of the court, they said to Him, “Teacher, this woman has been caught in adultery, in the very act. Now in the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women; what then do You say?” (John 8: 3-5)

Jesus was sitting in one of the Temple’s courts, teaching a large crowd of people. Maybe, He was explaining His “rivers of living waters” statement which had recently caused a controversy among the Jews.

But as He taught, a commotion interrupted His teaching. A crowd of men, scribes and Pharisees, dragged a women into the center of the court, and then these men pointed out her sin of adultery to Jesus.

The scribes were not really a religious sect like the Pharisees, but were professionals who copied the Law onto scrolls. The scribe’s work was tedious and demanding, but because of their total involvement with the Old Covenant, the scribes knew the Law and were also teachers of it.

As for the Pharisees, this sect of six thousand men memorized the whole Law. They devoted their lives to following the Law’s dictates and calling Israel back to a strict observance of the Law.

And usually, the scribes and the Pharisees agreed with each other.

But the Pharisees had a problem: lust. And since, the Law elevated men to leadership positions in the Temple and to a higher place of worship in the Temple and also used male circumcision as an Old Covenant sign, the Pharisees figured that men were preferred by God and much closer to God than women were.

Thus, the Pharisees blamed women for their problems with lust and also for the sins of fornication and adultery.

So, now we can understand why only the woman stood in the center of the court, guilty of adultery. The man, who was the woman’s lover and also caught at the same time as the woman, was given a pass by the scribes and Pharisees.

After all, it was the woman’s fault, and not the man’s fault.

Jesus did not buy into the logic of the scribes and Pharisees.  Instead, He eventually said:

He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw  a stone at her. (John 8: 7)

Who knows? Maybe, each of the male scribes and Pharisees wished he had been in bed with this woman rather than her lover.  And maybe, this particular woman was one that each of these men lusted for.

As we all know, the male scribes and Pharisees exited the court and left the woman alone with Jesus. Then the Lord admonished her not to commit adultery again.

Now, this incident was trumpeted by the crowd who witnessed the whole episode throughout Jerusalem and Judah. You can easily imagine what the people said, “Jesus actually cares about women and sees them as having standing before God.”

Now, why did the Father do this?

(Continued in Part 10)

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My Journey Out (Part 1)

A Updated Rerun Series

Prophetic marriages can really be something, right?

After being divorced in early 1992, I received a prophetic word later in the same year:

“The Lord will place the woman you are to marry in front of you. So don’t go looking for her.”

At the time, I thought, what a silly prophetic word. I can’t afford to pay attention. So how can I possibly  support a wife?

Fast-forward ahead two years to a home church meeting where I prayed for a lady named *Virginia. And Virginia was standing in front  of me when I prayed for her.  Soon, we began dating each other.

But this was 1994, and I was going through the worst financial and spiritual warfare struggles of my life. I was barely able to hold my head above water, and Virginia had her own bag of issues. So, our relationship was on-again and off-again during the months that followed.

Then, in early 1995, while driving my truck home from Virginia’s place,  I was talking to the Lord about my dating situation. “Lord, You need to get us married. What’s Your problem?”

All of a sudden, the truck cab filled up with laughter. It was as if  Jesus and His angels were laughing. The laughter was so loud and contagious that I joined in, tears ran down my face. I slowed the truck down so I would not end up in a ditch because of my laughing convulsions.

Hmm, I thought at the time. Is the Lord laughing because He knows something that I don’t know or is He just happy for me?

I chose to ignore the former and opted for the latter.

Next, the Lord spoke to my heart in July, 1995. “You will get married on an anniversary.”

And guess what? A  Christian neighbor came over to my apartment later on  the same day. He was excited. “I saw an anniversary card at the drug store and felt the word anniversary was important to you,” he said.

Unbelievable confirmation, right?

Now, at the time, I was confidant that I would marry Virginia because of the 1992 prophecy. There were no doubts in my mind. We just needed a few miracles from God to make it happen.

But then, nothing happened for months and months. Virginia and I discontinued dating because of our issues. But even in the midst of all of this discouragement, I felt that I needed to just hold onto the prophetic words and something good would eventually happen. Faith moves mountains!

But then God pulled a switcheroo on me. A big, big switcheroo!

(Continued in Part 2.)

*Virginia is a fictitious name for the woman.

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God, FaceBook and Me

A 4th of July Departure from the Norm

David Wilkerson once visited Basilea Schlink (1904 – 2001) in Darmstadt, Germany. As Wilkerson walked into her office, he was knocked to the floor by the presence of God which surrounded Schlink. While on the floor, Wilkerson realized, “This is a mighty woman of God.”

Throughout Schlink’s life, she stressed the importance of repentance, reconciliation and prayer. She herself normally prayed eight to ten hours per day, and then in her off time, she wrote numerous books and founded a Sisterhood based on prayer.

In one of her books, she wrote how she visited the Louvre in Paris. And as she walked through the museum and looked at timeless works of art, such as the Mona Lisa, Venus de Milo and others, Schlink could not enjoy herself. She felt guilty by the time she was wasting.

After all, Schlink was not praying or studying the Bible or writing or advancing the kingdom of God, but instead, she was walking around, looking at works done by men. And the works, for the most part, were not even created for the glory of God.

Not only could Schlink not enjoy herself, but she found herself looking down her nose at other believers who did not feel and act the same way as she did. She cruelly judged them according to her own personal standards.

Then, one day, while Schlink prayed, some Bible verses touched her heart.

But now I come to You; and these things I speak in the world so that they may have My joy made full in themselves; I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. I do not ask You to take them out of the world, but to keep them from the evil one. (John 17: 13 – 15)

A powerful revelation dawned upon Basilea Schlink: the Lord wanted her to enjoy life. It was okay to enjoy artistic works and music created by men because, after all, these men were created by the Creator for His good pleasure. And also, it was okay to laugh and have fun in her life because there was great joy in doing so.

Sadly, I, too, have been there, done that and bought the tee-shirt, just like Basilea Schlink. I’ve looked down my religious nose at others who did not act like me. Now, I cry out daily to be set free of these and other judgmental attitudes.

Well, what about God, FaceBook and Me, huh?

I purposely use FaceBook as a meeting place, much like a coffee shop, to talk with  family and friends. And believe it or not, when I’m with family and friends,  I don’t speak Christianese. I tell jokes and have fun.

So, if you ever add me to your FaceBook friend’s list, don’t expect me to spout many Bible verses or prophecies, okay? That’s what this blog is for.

Or at least, that is my way of thinking.

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Waiting on the Lord, You know, Just Waiting on the Lord (Part 7)

An Updated Rerun Series

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5 and Part 6.


So, what can a New Testament believer do to help bring a personal prophetic word to pass in his (or her) life?

D. Waiting And Waiting And Waiting.

But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)

If any American region knows about waiting, it should be us Southern Californians, all 24,000,000 of us. We wait on expressways. We wait in banks. Grocery stores. Libraries. Post offices. Walmarts. LAX. Disneyland. We wait everywhere. It’s a fact of life. Period.

But is this the type of waiting referred to in Isaiah 40:31?

The Hebrew word qavah, which is translated into the English word wait in Isaiah 40:31, means more than just hanging out and passing time while doing nothing. It’s number one interpretative definition actually conveys the thought of “to twist or to bind like a rope.”

Now, consider that rope making has been around for thousands of years. Natural fibers, such as jute, sissal or common vines, are woven into strands which are then woven into ropes, usually three-stranded ones .

Hold the picture of a woven rope in your mind for a moment or two, okay?

The second interpretative definition for the Hebrew word qavah implies “to be strong, robust” as in the notion of tying fast with a rope. And even the third interpretive definition imparts the idea of “enduring, waiting for or expecting with strength.”

Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait for You. (Psalm 25:21)

Wait for the Lord and keep His way, and He will exalt you to inherit the land… (Psalm 37:34)

Scripturally, waiting on the Lord does not imply that a believer sits around, doing nothing, and still hopes that his personal prophetic words will come to pass in his life. It won’t happen!

Waiting on the Lord means winding and weaving yourself around the true vine – Jesus – so that like a rope, you will be strengthened and renewed to receive the promises offered by your prophetic words.

If you abide in Me and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. (John 15:7)

(This concludes this series.)

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Thank God For Women, But… (Part 8)

Click on following links for earlier articles: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 and Part 7.

Even as an agnostic, I knew two scriptures and one unusual story. John 3:16 – from my Bible school days. John 11: 35 – from playing Trivial Pursuit. And the unusual story – from listening to a stereo record album.

You see, in my college days, I enjoyed folk music and one of my favorite groups was Peter, Paul and Mary.  A song that I really liked by the trio was Jesus Met the Woman at the Well. I listened to it over and over again.

Then as a new Christian, I discovered that Peter, Paul and Mary’s song was actually taken from the Bible. And it is this story which was the second early act that Jesus performed, that sent shock-waves through the men-only leadership system of the Temple.

And Jacob’s well was there. So Jesus, being wearied from His journey, was sitting thus by the well. It was about the sixth hour. There came a woman of Samaria to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give me a drink.” (John 4: 6-7)

Jesus did the unspeakable: He spoke to a woman in public.

Yes, the woman was a Samaritan and, most of the time, Jews avoided Samaritans. The reasons the Jews did this was because they despised the mixed Gentile ancestral heritage of the Samaritans and their style of worship.

But being a Samaritan was not the number one issue in this instance.  It was because the person was a woman.

At this point His disciples came, and they were amazed that He had been speaking with a woman, yet no one said, “What do You seek?” or “Why do You speak with her?” (John 4: 27)

Not only did Jesus break the accepted religious protocol of His day, but He did something even more amazing than that.

The woman said to Him, “I know that Messiah is coming (He who is called Christ); when that One comes, He will declare all things to us. Jesus said to her, “I who speak to you am He.” (John 4: 25 – 26)

Jesus tells a woman that He is Messiah, the Christ. So, when did His twelve men disciples finally discover this same truth?

Simon Peter answered, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God. And Jesus said to him, “Blessed are you, Simon Barjona, because flesh and blood did not reveal this to you, but My Father who is in heaven. (Matthew 16: 16 – 17)

Simon’s revelation happened about two years later.

Now, was this just a mere coincidence that Jesus revealed who He was first to a woman?

For I do not speak on My own initiative, but the Father Himself who sent Me has given Me a commandment as to what to say and what to speak. (John 12:49)

…Truly, truly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, unless it is something He sees the Father doing; for whatever the Father does, these things the Son also does in like manner. (John 5: 19)

Amazing, but true! It was the Father’s decision to honor a woman.

Now, why did the Father do this?

(Continued in Part 9)

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