In the late 1980’s, I had a nighttime dream in which I was standing in the middle of a palatial ballroom. All of my precious Christian friends were there with me.
At the front of this gorgeous ballroom, a worship team was singing. The music was Holy Spirit inspired and awesome. Everyone was having a great time worshiping the Lord and fellowshipping with one other.
As I stood there, I looked around and thought, “It can’t get any better than this, can it?”
But as dreams often do, the scene changed. The crowd off to my right parted and I could see through some double-doors leading out of the ballroom and into a large hallway. The hallway itself was magnificent with a lush carpet, expensive wallpaper and gold-leaf moldings.
Because of the angle I was looking through the doors, I could see a large gold-leaf mirror at the far end of the hallway. The mirror’s reflection was not of the hallway, but instead, it revealed a glimpse into another ballroom just across the hallway. The glimpse came about because one of the double-doors for the other ballroom was partially opened.
What I saw in the other ballroom stirred an immediate and deep hunger within me.
Now, there was nobody in the room; and the room itself was not as magnificent as the one that I was standing in. But it had an overwhelming presence of God in the room. So much so, that there was an intimidating holiness about it. A holiness which I knew would result in my death if I ever walked into that ballroom.
But I did not care because I absolutely wanted to be in that ballroom.
As I stood there, I knew what was required of me to get into that ballroom on the other side of the hallway. I had to turn my back on all my friends, many of my teachings and walk out the double-doors into the hallway.
This dream so effected me, that for years, I prayed, “Lord, I want to be in that other ballroom and I’m willing to pay whatever price You may require of me.”
So, after all my praying, you’d think I would have been prepared for the Holy Spirit’s statement to me in the summer of 1995, but I wasn’t. His words: “Too much pastoring in the church.”
(Continued in Part 2)
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19 responses to ““My Journey Out” (Part 1)”
It appears we are on a similar journey. When our hallway experience began, I was already about 3 years into a starting over period with God. The hallway kind of put it all on a fast track. My initial praying was to get out of the hallway. One day He stopped me and told me I was to trust that He would sustain in it. So I quit asking (for the most part).
He seemed to be after a level of trust that I had read about but had never experienced personally. In a way I was in a situation to where I didn’t have much of an option, but I guess I did have to at least agree to trust, and to do so required me staying very close to God.
There were times that I got so close, that the hallway was secondary. The thought of praying that He would open the other door was a digression of the good I was experiencing with Him. I wanted nothing more than more of Him.
It is hard to explain to most people. From the few lines you wrote in this post, I sense you know what I mean. I wonder what His purpose is. I am convinced it is for a purpose beyond myself but as of yet I do not know what that purpose is.
Thanks for the post on my book. I read the excerpt from yours while on vacation and didn’t realize till after my comments that it was from earlier this year. Have you finished it yet?
All for now,
Thanks for your comments. Whenever, or if ever, I am out of the hallway, then I will know more about His plans. But of course, I have a few glimpses.
As for Jonah, it is finished and waiting to be published.
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