In 1985, my life smashed into a brick wall. I needed thousands of dollars to start a publishing company and bail my family out of debt. My sources were all maxed out and the hope level in my reservoir was hovering at empty. I was finished.
The only untouched asset I had was a $125,000 life insurance policy. So, my solution seemed obvious: suicide.
As for taking my life, I had no problems with it because I was an agnostic. No God equals no problems with eternal judgment, right? It wasn’t personal, just a business solution for my family and me.
My plan was uncomplicated. I figured on enjoying one last weekend with my family and then committing suicide on that Monday evening.
Thus, on May 20, 1985, I spent the day finishing up loose ends. Then, for some reason, I stopped at an insurance agent’s office. Although we knew each other, Bill and I were not intimate friends and had never really talked to each other before that day.
Bill invited me into his office. We discussed baseball. Then in the middle of our conversation, he stared at me and said, “You’re thinking about committing suicide, aren’t you?”
His words hit me like a sledgehammer. How did he know? I told no one. It was my secret $125,000 payday. I was speechless. As I sat there, a vision played across my mind about my car ramming into a viaduct and killing me.
I wept and although I tried to regain my composure, I could not. “How did you know?” I asked.
“Oh,” said Bill, “the Lord told me while we were talking to each other.”
His words shattered my unbelief. God was alive and He cared about me. We continued talking and he finally gave me a book to read: Power in Praise by Merlin Carothers.
When I arrived home, I began reading the book. After a few pages, I walked into the bathroom, closed the door and knelt in front of the sink. Looking into the mirror, I prayed, “Jesus, I’ve tried everything else and nothing has worked. I guess I’ll give You a try.”
Instantly, I was changed. Fear and shame were no longer a part of me, but instead, joy and hope filled my heart. Bowing and worshipping my new King, I promised to never let go of His hand.
If my story were a fictional Hollywood movie, perhaps it would resemble It’s A Wonderful Life. Jimmy Stewart would play me and Donna Reed my wife. The angel would get his wings and everyone would live happily ever after. The end.
But sadly, my life has not been a work of fiction. It has been a day to day journey, filled with a few good experiences, but also many mistakes, false starts and failures. Divorce. Loss of friends. Numerous firings from sales positions. Low-paying jobs. Poverty. Rejection. Loneliness. Not exactly, a picture perfect Christian life.
And yet, it has been in the deepest valleys where the Lord has truly revealed Himself to me. It was there He became my loving Father and I learned His grace was sufficient for me.
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Once again, it’s time to hear from our sister in Jerusalem about what she is witnessing there as a believer in Yeshua. Put your prayer shawls on and pray for Israel and Sister J. Now here she is —
May the Lord be glorified.
It is2:30 amand I should be asleep. I need to worktomorrow,Sunday, Jerusalem Day, and I love to write about Jerusalem and Jerusalem Day in particular. But this prayer request is pressing me to write. Perhaps prayer request is the wrong word – it is more of a call to pray!
I told you that this week would possibly be pivotal here and for all of the Middle East and the world. You probably know by now that Israel struck some 70 mostly Iranian bases in Syria this week after 20 missiles from Syria were fired at us. It was a major confrontation. That wasThursday.
On Fridaywas the continuation of the Hamas Gaza “days of rage” dubbed “the march of return.”It has gained momentum because of much false news reporting.
TUESDAY 15TH OF MAY(please note that we are some 8-12 hours ahead of North America according to the clock) the call has gone out to Palestinians and their supporters worldwide to come to the borders of Israel and storm them…tear them down.This Fridaysaw some 15,000 rioters at the borders causing fires, even setting their own gas pipe line on fire, along the fence and setting wheat fields in Israel aflame using kites with incendiaries attached into Israel.
I understand that there are gatherings at the borders of Lebanon and possibly Jordan as well. Also within the Hamas-run Palestinian cities in Judea and Samaria there is definitely the strong possibility of participation.
The15th of Mayis called by the Palestinians –Nakba Day (catastrophe day). They call it a day of rage that commemorates the birth of the modern State of Israel according to the Gregorian Calendar. Hamas has fanned it into a major day over the past 10 years.
So today, Sunday 13th of May is Jerusalem Day.
Tomorrow, Monday the 14th of May, is the day that the US Embassy is formally opening in Jerusalem.
Tuesday the 15th of Mayis the day set to be “the mother of all days of rage” with the storming of the borders of Israel from all sides and within led by the Gaza Hamas leadership.
Wednesday the 16th of Maybegins the month of the Ramadan fast.
“The burdenof the word of theLordagainst Israel. Thus says theLord, who stretches out the heavens, lays the foundation of the earth, and forms the spirit of man within him:“Behold, I will make Jerusalem a cup of drunkenness to all the surrounding peoples, when they lay siege against Judah and Jerusalem.And it shall happen in that day that I will make Jerusalem a very heavy stone for all peoples; all who would heave it away will surely be cut in pieces, though all nations of the earth are gathered against it.In that day,” says theLord, “I will strike every horse with confusion, and its rider with madness;…”ZECHARIAH 12:1-3 (of course, great promises follow this section)
There is NO FEAR, and surely without a doubt, we have many promises that HE WILL BE GLORIFIED and that ALL OF ISRAEL SHALL BE SAVED. But we also see that many, many things will first happen and many waters will be passed through.
BUT HE HAS TOLD US TO PRAY. AND TO WATCH AND PRAY. Habakkuk prayed without apology“Oh Lord, in wrath remember mercy.”It is time to pray the scriptures on our faces.
PLEASE enter your closets and pray before Him Who hears, those of you who are called as watchmen for the Lord on the walls of Jerusalem. I believe that we are entering that time.
In my take of things, we are a body, but individually all rather little and simple. We are not called to leave the battle to the spiritual giants whoever they are, but to each do our part. It is not up to us to decide how small and insignificant it is. I think of the disciples told to feed the multitude and they said, “Lord! I have NOTHING! Only this small insignificant amount!,” but HE took it…HE blessed it …HE broke it…and it was MORE THAN ENOUGH.
Each of us has our portion. Be it big guns or a piece of bread and a small fish. We can pray…even a little.
As I said, I felt that this call to prayer had to go outnow. I hope that we see no need ultimately. I will now try to sleep. May The Lord be glorified on the borders of Israel and in Jerusalem…and in each of us!
The United States moves its embassy in Israel to Jerusalem next week in defiance of the Palestinians and most of the world, likely further heightening tensions at a time of tumult in the region.
US President Donald Trump is set to make good on his pledge in December when he broke with decades of precedent and recognised the disputed city as Israel’s capital to global outcry.
The embassy inauguration due to take place Monday caps his decision but comes at a particularly fevered time, after weeks of deadly protests and clashes along the Gaza Strip’s border with Israel. (Rest of article can be seen here.)
My prayer today:
Lord, I pray for Your peace to rest upon Jerusalem and for Your blessings to fall upon President Trump for his boldness in moving the U.S. Embassy to Jerusalem. May Your Spirit continue to strengthen President Trump’s resolve to defy world opinion by his backing of Israel. (Based on Psalm 122:6)
What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you today?
Join with me on Thursdays to fast and pray for America.
How would you answer this question? Which group is the smallest, most rejected minority in our country?
African-Americans have certainly suffered terribly through our history…Perhaps it is Native Americans?…What about the LGBT community?…
Ironically, the group that can lay claim to being the smallest and most rejected minority in America today once was part of the LGBT community. They once identified as gay or lesbian or bisexual or transgender, but they no longer do. Today, they are “ex-gay” or “ex-trans.”
Their numbers are very small, since they came out of a small community to start with. And it is only a small percentage of that small group who make a break with the rest of the LGBT community.
Most of them make that break because of their religious faith, often newly found.
(Smallest and Most Rejected Minority in America by Dr. Michael Brown, columnist at WND.com. The entire column can be seen here.)
My prayer today:
Lord, help us not despise the day of small beginnings in seeing people delivered from LGBT lifestyles, but help us to increase our faith and efforts, knowing that You came to set the captives free and destroy the works of the Devil. (Based on Zechariah 4:10, Luke 4:10 and 1 John 3:8)
What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you today?
Join with me on Tuesdays to fast and pray for LGBT believers.
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“The reason gays have a problem with the church is that we treat their sin as so much worse than the others. We will excommunicate people for homosexuality but not for divorce. And I do it for divorce. Divorce is a terrible sin in the sight of God…
“It’s also what I said about singleness. This isn’t about sexuality as much as it is about surrendering to the Kingdom and being a person about the Kingdom. Look, if I’m single for the rest of my life, that’s not the biggest thing in my life. It’s not my sexuality or my sexual urges which define who I am.
“I find my identity — are you kidding me? I can actually speak to God. I can be His servant. I’m going to be with Him forever. Where’s my identity found in?
“A lot of these sin issues are secondary. The bottom line – let’s just start here. Whatever issues you are dealing with today…Are you willing to surrender to God? No matter what He says. What if He said in this book [Bible] that Chinese people have to stand on their heads? Just an example, but I will try to stand on my head. He’s God! What if He said Chinese people don’t get to marry? He’s God. I don’t like that but I’m going to surrender to that because I understand the difference between a Creator and a created being. So whatever!
“And before we get to what this book [Bible] actually says, I have to say, ‘Will you surrender? If you disagree with God on an issue, would you still submit to Him?’ I really believe that is the core issue here.
“Then if so, because that’s the type of person I want to be also, let’s look at this book [Bible] together. A lot of following Jesus is about denying yourself and pick up your cross and follow Me. A lot of this is about beating your body and making it your slave. It’s about not doing the things you very much want to do. That’s the core issue.
“Two guys walking in, holding hands. That’s not the first thing I’d address. I really think we jump to that too quickly, rather than saying, ‘At the core of your being, do you believe in a Creator and if He is your Creator, would you surrender to whatever He asks for you to do? Maybe I’m wrong on this thing. Let’s study together and then you tell me.
“From my personal understanding of this book [Bible], it [homosexuality] appears to be a sin to me. But if you study it and your best personal conclusion is that it is not. Help me understand that from scripture and not from reasoning. Because we all reason and we all fight for the things we want.” (See full video here.)
My prayer today:
Lord, help American Christians to follow Your example of reasoning together with LGBT believers, allowing You to be Lord and us to be Your flawed disciples. (Based on Isaiah 1:18)
What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you today?
Join with me on Tuesdays to fast and pray for LGBT believers.
I know that it is perhaps too soon since my last letter, but I did want to share what I have seen and heard while it is yet fresh in my heart. May you be encouraged and blessed and may THE LORD alone be glorified and edified!
“for assuredly, I say to you that many prophets and righteous men desired to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it”. MATTHEW 13:17
I suspected that Israel turning 70 would be dramatic even though I am always amazed when I walk around Jerusalem. The city is a clear example of The Lord’s ability and faithfulness to fulfill His own promises.
The grieving that I began to describe in the letter that I sent you on Remembrance Day, seemed deeper this year. How was that possible? It is terribly deep EVERY year. As I watched films and saw photos of soldiers and families, it hit me afresh that not one picture was taken on foreign soil but all HERE…in our neighborhoods, around the corner and down the block in this very tiny country…because these, our sons and daughters, husbands and wives really are defending the land that is in front of their houses, our houses. I
It is all so personal and all so in your face ALL the time. There are no faceless people, even though the population of the country is approaching 9 million. They are daily on the train with me. Many are soldiers whom I laugh with and pray for and whose packs I trip over as it is strewn in the aisle. I tell a sleepy soldier to mind his bullets as they are slipping out, or another that his phone is ringing.
But then it happened: the crowds gravitated back to Har Herzl (Mount Herzl). Streams flowing into rivers and then becoming an ocean of people. I watched and then turned on the television. I like to watch the ceremony (“tekes” in Hebrew). It is truly like having a finger on the pulse of a patient. It is only in Hebrew and I can understand much of it, and so it means a lot to me.
Always it seems as though it is IMPOSSIBLE to go in a hair’s breadth from deep and real mourning into rejoicing, but now I have come to expect that they will pull it off, AGAIN. Nevertheless, I lift up a prayer because there is the heart and morale of this people who still do not know Him at stake.
And this is the 70th year!
The Biblical significance of the numbers do not go unnoticed here. Seventy is perfection, completeness, I could go on and on. Most of you know, and this country knows, and seems to me to be looking up with expectation. Everyone is excited. Everyone over 70 remembers…
The ceremonies are opened and the prayers are spoken and embraced. The trumpet sounds its minor notes and moves to the major ones and the flag is raised. The eyes look upward. The ceremonies are intermingled with song, prayer, poems, speeches and a theatrical show in lights and dance. This years was spectacular. The story of our people from the beginning.
How in the world did they do this: turn the stage into Mt. Sinai one minute and a flood of the words of all of the prophets in Hebrew in the next? Drones flew over adding displays to the sky.
But it is NOT the ceremony – dramatic and emotional though it was – that I want to describe to and share with you. Not the speeches that moved the heart and inspired and brought tears again and again: Not the memories that reminded us that THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE, BUT IT IS!
Let me share with you a few things that turned my head.
I am moved by our national anthem, HaTikvah. I waited for it at the end of the ceremonies and there in my living room alone when it began I stood to my feet to sing http://www.hebrewsongs.com/?song=hatikva . When it ended, I turned off the television to go out into the streets and I STILL heard HaTikvah being sung loudly.
I checked the TV and radio and they were off. So I went out onto my merepesset and there across, the street and spilling over into the street and all around, hundreds of people stood straight and tall singing with one voice raised spontaneously. “Eretz zion, vey Yerushaleyem…”
It was one of those defining those moments! A moment of deep deep transported emotion, transported into the full knowing that INDEED GOD IS DOING THIS.
And you might roll your eyes at that statement, thinking it is just fleshly emotion, if you did not KNOW The Word and He Who gave The Word and made the promises, but I know that I am speaking to people who have also read and been quickened by The Holy Spirit to KNOW that GOD IS FULFILLING HIS WORD. GOD IS BRINGING HIS PEOPLE BACK TO REVEAL HIMSELF for the last days HAVE been written about and…well…here we are!
At work yesterday, each patient shared about their day and their wonder at it all. I asked people and heard many stories. Twice I was in for a personal shock. Tova told me that she was a baby in 1948 when her family arrived from Romania. They went to Jerusalem which was shortly besieged by Arab armies, and there was no food.
She told me about being a small child in war and starvation and then she said, “I am sure that we would have starved to death except for these things: care packages. They kept us alive.”
I began to shake. Do you know how the stirring of a childhood memory can cause you to shake? Perhaps it just touches something so tender but there I was shaking. “Tova, I was born in NYC in 1946 and brought home EVERY DAY from the time that I was in kindergarten. We would pack those care packages with our own hands. I brought around a can to my neighbors and said, ‘Pennies for Israel!’ And yes Tova, I DO know about those boxes. My young heart really DID care as we packed them!”
We stared at each other and hugged with tears. What a strangely intense moment.
A little later I was sharing that experience with Binyamin and Sylvia. They are in their 80s and 90s and seemed like typical New Yorkers to me so it never occurred to me that perhaps they had immigrated first to the US as children. But they had, from the war. And it startled me when Binyamin started recounting the awful times that this world has seen and referred to the great depression.
I had always heard about it from my parents who grew up in it and were greatly impacted by it, but it always seemed to me as if the war overshadowed even that. Suddenly Binyamin explained something I never understood before. “You know, there was NO FOOD in THE WORLD! Do you realize that we lost our 6 million, but 42 million people died in the war. The earth was scorched. There was no one to farm the land that wasn’t burned and there were no farmers. The animals had no food and died. The factories were burned and gone. THERE WAS NO FOOD EXCEPT IN AMERICA!”
Growing up in America, if I had learned about that I didn’t understand it fully. It never hit me, but it DID hit me that moment as I watched him describe the world wide hunger and starvation after the war. And again I shook. “THANK YOU LORD FOR OUR DAILY BREAD.”
I have one more vivid experience to share before sending this and running off into a way too busy day:
We, once again, joined our kehila (congregation) at the home of dear brother and sister who live in the hills above Modi’en to share barbeque (‘mangel’ in Hebrew) fellowship, song, and testimony. As we left, one of the young soldiers asked for a ride back to Latrune where he was meeting other believing soldiers. Happily we took him and as we stopped at the bus stop in Latrune to let him off, a young woman at the bus stop, tanned and sporting a huge backpack, ran up and asked if we were going to Jerusalem and if she could have a ride. As the door swung open to let her in, a second young woman with several backpacks ran up and asked the same question. This one in accented English, so we took her as well.
As we asked each one about themselves and how their celebration had been, the second one took over. She did not speak Hebrew as she was a 19-year old German tourist from Berlin who did not know WHY she came to Israel. “Probably for the weather.”
My husband asked her if this had been her first Passover and she burst out, “Oh YES! Do you KNOW that they don’t eat bread for a whole week? I have never heard of such a thing! It was awful! AND they have this thing called Shabbat when the buses do not run. Amazing!”
I asked her, “Have you ever read the Bible? All of these things are written about in there.”
She laughed, “Oh no! I have never even seen one but I will likely read one now, after the Quran, of course! They have some interesting stories I hear…”
We did not have much time, but I admit to being shocked that this German girl from Berlin knew nothing about the Jews. I thought that the Holocaust was taught extensively in Germany and assumed that the basics of who the Jews were would also be understood. And this young woman had never even SEEN a Bible…
HOW QUICKLY I FORGOT MY OWN IGNORANCE! How can I be truly thankful until I remember how MUCH GOD HAS TAUGHT ME AND the way that HE has lead me in my ignorance.
AND YET HE CONTINUES TO LEADS. (IF we will let Him). You, me, this nation and yours. May we glorify HIM and may this, our 70th year be the year of revelation and of revival.
My new weekly column entitled, “LGBT Battle: Why Isn’t God Helping Christians,”can be read by clicking here.
If you have an iPhone or iPad, you can perhaps read it better by using the Chrome browser rather than Safari. Also, you can go to the app store and download a free app called: WND.
Lord, help American believers to actually believe Your Word enough to wholeheartedly pray for the peace of Jerusalem until it becomes an actuality. (Based on Psalm 122:6)
Just a reminder: on May 14, 2018, the new American embassy will open in Jerusalem. Let’s continue praying for America to continue forward on this.
What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you today?
Join with me on Thursdays to fast and pray for America.
Harry Truman and the Jewish Haberdasher
My new weekly column entitled, “Harry Truman and the Jewish Haberdasher,”can be read by clicking here.
If you have an iPhone or iPad, you can perhaps read it better by using the Chrome browser rather than Safari. Also, you can go to the app store and download a free app called: WND.
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