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Tuesday’s Prayers for Prisoners (5/26/2015)

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Each Tuesday, I pray and fast for the nations of Asia, where 4.4 billion people live. 

Why Asia?

1. 85.4% of world’s unevangelized people live in Asia. (Unevangelized means they may have heard the gospel but have no understanding on how to respond.)

2. The world’s three largest non-Christian religions – Muslim, Hindu, and Buddhists – are based in Asia.

3. Of the 37 countries of the world that are less than 10% Christian, 32 are in Asia. Of the 14 countries, that are less than 2% Christian, 12 are in Asia.

4. 85-90% of unreached people live in Asia. (Unreached means that they have never heard the name of Jesus.) (Operation World: The Definitive Prayer Guide to Every Nation)

Charlie Peace was a criminal. Laws of God or man curbed him not. Finally the law caught up with him, and he was condemned to death. On the fatal morning in Armley Jail, Leeds, England, he was taken on the death-walk. Before him went the prison chaplain, routinely and sleepily reading some Bible verses. The criminal touched the preacher and asked what he was reading. “The Consolations of Religion,” was the replay.

Charlie Peace was shocked at the way he professionally read about hell. Could a man be so unmoved under the very shadow of the scaffold as to lead a fellow-human there and yet, dry-eyed, read of a pit that has no bottom into which this fellow must fall? Could this preacher believe the words that there is an eternal fire that never consumes its victims, and yet slide over the phrase with a tremor? Is a man human at all who can say with no tears, “You will be eternally dying and yet never know the relief that death brings?”

All this was too much for Charlie Peace. So he preached. Listen to his on-the-eve-of-hell sermon:

“Sir,” addressing the preacher, “if I believed what you and the church of God say that you believe, even if England were covered with broken glass from coast to coast, I would walk over it, if need be, on hands and knees and think it worthwhile living, just to save one soul from an eternal hell like that!” (Why Revival Tarries by Leonard Ravenhill)

Today, I prayed for the unreached people of Asia:

Forgive me, Lord, for my apathy toward the hundreds of millions of people in Asia who have never heard Your name. Make me willing to crawl on my hands and knees across broken glass –if need be – to reach as many of them as possible for You.

Join with me on Tuesdays to fast and pray for prisoners, according to Hebrews 13:3.

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Inside Israel

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Once again, it’s time to hear from our sister in Jerusalem about what she is witnessing there as a believer in Yeshua. Put your prayer shawls on and pray for Israel and Sister J. Now here she is …

Loving greetings to each of you, precious to Him Who is Lord of lords and King of kings.  THANKFULLY, He is really ABLE to keep us and present us safe in Him unto that day.  Thank You Lord for Your grace, mercy and the provision of the Precious Blood!

I thought about you much on Jerusalem Day and wrote many things in my head.  There is not much like a WONDERFUL one year old Granddaughter who is severely jet lagged to disrupt your life, unless it is an earthquake or a tornado.  She’s such a joy and gift, but when she’s up at 2a.m., she has the power of all sorts of natural disasters, so we are all tired (and the older ones of us perhaps a bit more).

Yom Yerushalaym (Jerusalem Day) was this past Sunday.  It is one of my favorite days, but I was surprised that already on Thursday, very large groups of youth were walking into Jerusalem singing and waving flags, dancing in the streets.  They walk here from all over the country to celebrate the miraculous reunification of Jerusalem after 2,000 years of Jewish exile from her capital.  This celebration marks the 48th year since her return in 1967. It definitely had some unique characteristics.

I frankly wondered what would happen at all.  Since our elections and the establishment of a markedly right wing religious government, the left wing secular segments of our society, greatly supported by the network of social media world wide, have been waging a distortion, smear and hate campaign against every move they make.  That included the usual Jerusalem Day activities.  They called it a provocation and staged counter rallies calling for the cancellation of all celebrations and events and for the re-dividing of Jerusalem.

I wasn’t sure exactly what was going to take place, but to my delight the Jerusalem songs began to play and people began to wish one another “Joyous Jerusalem Day” and hang out Jerusalem flags.  It was nice to turn away from the news media and look into the faces of the people, thankful faces of people who wanted to bless Jerusalem and The God Who said that He would put His Name here.

One of the more interesting chance observations that I made, was in the shuk – my favorite observation post.

I was passing two Arabs, one a vendor and another delivering something or other.  The one spoke in Arabic but the vendor turned and answered him in Arabic accented Hebrew and from his answer I was able to gather the point of the conversation.  Thanks to social media and many other instigators, there is active recruitment for ISIS here as in other countries.  The gist of the Hebrew answer was, “What! YOU can go to Syria under Asad or those clowns if you want!  I’m staying here!  My life is far better then any of theirs!”

I love the shuk where Arab and Jew are together day in and day out and share a unique bond.  When the intifada saw bombings at the shuk, both Arab and Jew suffered, and helped one another.

This morning I was meditating in Rev 6:4 –

“And there went out another horse that was red: and power was given to him that sat thereon to take peace from the earth, and that they should kill one another: and there was given unto him a great sword.”  

And I began to thank The Lord for the OTHER PEACE that He has been speaking to my heart about: the Peace that is NOT as the world gives. Nothing in this world can take that Peace away.  Hallelujah!  Walking through…Looking away unto Him…letting the Peace that passes all understanding keep my heart and mind IN HIM. These seem to be my major focus as I live here on the rapidly changing front lines of things about to come.  Funny how a snow ball gathers speed as it rolls downhill and grows bigger and heavier.  So these days seem to be speeding up into a blur.  I have thought about the horrors of the earthquake and avalanches in Nepal and how suddenly  those were caught in it.  When the disciples asked Yeshua, as recorded in Matthew 24

 “Tell us, when will these things be? And what will be the sign of Your coming, and of the end of the age? It says: “ And Jesus answered and said to them: “Take heed that no one deceives you.

In other words…take heed to yourself…not to what is going on around you.  Be sure that you are walking in The Truth and anchored in The Rock.  Yes, we see the signs of the times all around us.

Jerusalem Day passed with no major disturbances, although many tried.  The celebrations were joyful and again the promise went forth that “Jerusalem will remain the undivided capital of Israel.”

Oh well.  Both the European Union chief and UN representatives are meeting here today to challenge that.  They do keep increasing the pressure but they don’t honor the Word of God or The God of the Word.  May He open their eyes in His mercy.  With Him ALL things are possible.

And so we are now getting ready for Shavout (Pentecost).  This marks the end of the Passover time and the end of the counting of the omer.  It was the second of the 3 holidays where God commanded all Israeli men to come up to Jerusalem and make specific offerings at the temple. This is the FIRST FRUITS offering, the time of the early harvest of the grain, barley, wheat and the first of the bread to be offered in Thanksgiving.  That is why all of the people were gathered at the temple on Pentecost, fifty days after the Passover of the crucifixion and the resurrection, when He poured His Spirit out upon the people in Jerusalem as described in Acts 2. The New Bread broken among the people – now able to offer true Thanksgiving from the heart.

Deut 26:1-10 is my favorite of the many shadow descriptions of Shavout…I say shadow’ because we know it now as a “shadow of things to come.”

Deut. 26:1-10 “And it shall be, when you come into the land which the Lord your God is giving you as an inheritance, and you possess it and dwell in it, that you shall take some of the first of all the produce of the ground, which you shall bring from your land that the Lordyour God is giving you, and put it in a basket and go to the place where the Lord your God chooses to make His name abide. And you shall go to the one who is priest in those days, and say to him, ‘I declare today to the Lord your God that I have come to the country which the Lord swore to our fathers to give us.’
“Then the priest shall take the basket out of your hand and set it down before the altar of the Lord your God. And you shall answer and say before the Lord your God: ‘My father was a Syrian, about to perish, and he went down to Egypt and dwelt there, few in number; and there he became a nation, great, mighty, and populous. But the Egyptians mistreated us, afflicted us, and laid hard bondage on us. Then we cried out to the Lord God of our fathers, and the Lord heard our voice and looked on our affliction and our labor and our oppression. So the Lord brought us out of Egypt with a mighty hand and with an outstretched arm, with great terror and with signs and wonders. He has brought us to this place and has given us this land, “a land flowing with milk and honey”; 10 and now, behold, I have brought the firstfruits of the land which you, O Lord, have given me.’
“Then you shall set it before the Lord your God, and worship before the Lord your God.

Today, for some reason that I STILL don’t understand fully, Shavout is celebrated with the eating of milk products and everyone dressing in white.  It has to do with The Word of The Lord being pure and people stay up all night in large groups studying The Word and/or particular topics and subjects to be wrestled with until the understanding comes from God.  Many do this before the Western Wall (considered the last standing wall of the original temple and the holiest place in Judaism aside from Temple Mount itself).

Thank you for baring with me through these rather poor offerings.  And THANK YOU for your prayers for us, for my people by blood and for The Lord’s plans.  May we be found standing in agreement with His Heart.

Lovingly,

your sis J in Jerusalem

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Thursday’s Prayers for America (5/21/2015)

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“Waa! Boo hoo! Everyone is picking on us Christians. Woe is us!”

I’m not totally ignorant to the problems we Americans are struggling with right now nor am I so hardhearted that I do not feel a little ticked off at the path our nation is treading on, but let’s put it in perspective, okay?

Let’s compare our problems with the ones believers are enduring in North Korea. Many of those believers are in prison, hoping to catch a mouse or rat or a cockroach to eat because they’re starving to death. Women believers in prisons are repeatedly raped and beaten. Added to all of this, they work twelve hours a day in horrendous manual labor jobs without proper clothing to protect them from the brutal cold temperatures.

And guess what?

The North Korean believers do not have Bibles to encourage themselves. All they have is a little strength to make it through each day because they have a quick glimpse of the King and know He’s worth it all.

Today, I prayed:

Lord, help us to hold fast and repent of our lukewarmness, which has caused us to be wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked before You. Give us the grace to purchase gold from You, refined in fire, so that we may enjoy Your riches and not our earthly ones. Clothe us in robes of white to cover our shame and anoint our eyes with divine eye salve so that we may see You and Your ways. (Based on Revelations 3:15-18)

What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you?

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Thirty Years Ago Today

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In 1985, my life smashed into a brick wall. I needed thousands of dollars to start a publishing company and bail my family out of debt. My sources were all maxed out and the hope level in my reservoir was hovering at empty. I was finished.

The only untouched asset I had was a $125,000 life insurance policy. So, my solution seemed obvious: suicide.

As for taking my life, I had no problems with it because I was an agnostic. No God equals no problems with eternal judgment, right? It wasn’t personal, just a business solution for my family and me.

My plan was uncomplicated. I figured on enjoying one last weekend with my family and then committing suicide on that Monday evening.

Thus, on May 20, 1985, I spent the day finishing up loose ends. Then, for some reason, I stopped at an insurance agent’s office. Although we knew each other, Bill and I were not intimate friends and had never really talked to each other before that day.

Bill invited me into his office. We discussed baseball. Then in the middle of our conversation, he stared at me and said, “You’re thinking about committing suicide, aren’t you?”

His words hit me like a sledgehammer. How did he know? I told no one. It was my secret $125,000 payday. I was speechless. As I sat there, a vision played across my mind about my car ramming into a viaduct and killing me.

I wept and although I tried to regain my composure, I could not. “How did you know?” I asked.

“Oh,” said Bill, “the Lord told me while we were talking to each other.”

His words shattered my unbelief. God was alive and He cared about me. We continued talking and he finally gave me a book to read: Power in Praise by Merlin Carothers.

When I arrived home, I began reading the book. After a few pages, I walked into the bathroom, closed the door and knelt in front of the sink. Looking into the mirror, I prayed, “Jesus, I’ve tried everything else and nothing has worked. I guess I’ll give You a try.”

Instantly, I was changed. Fear and shame were no longer a part of me, but instead, joy and hope filled my heart. Bowing and worshipping my new King, I promised to never let go of His hand.

If my story were a fictional Hollywood movie, perhaps it would resemble It’s A Wonderful Life. Jimmy Stewart would play me and Donna Reed my wife. The angel would get his wings and everyone would live happily ever after. The end.

But sadly, my life has not been a work of fiction. It has been a day to day journey, filled with a few good experiences, but also many mistakes, false starts and failures. Divorce. Loss of friends. Numerous firings from sales positions. Low-paying jobs. Poverty. Rejection. Loneliness. Not exactly, a picture perfect Christian life.

And yet, it has been in the deepest valleys where the Lord has truly revealed Himself to me. It was there He became my loving Father and I learned His grace was sufficient for me.

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Inside Israel

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Once again, it’s time to hear from our sister in Jerusalem about what she is witnessing there as a believer in Yeshua. Put your prayer shawls on and pray for Israel and Sister J. Now here she is …

Greetings Dear Sisters and Brothers in The precious Name of Yeshua h’meshiach, Jesus Christ. May He be blessed and glorified, and may you be blessed and edified.

John 14:27 is such a familiar verse.  Many of us embraced it in the very beginnings of our walk with Him…a great and precious promise it reads:

”Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth,

give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

And John 16:33:

“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”

But just because it is familiar, it is no less profound.  As a matter of fact, it has taken front and center stage in my heart lately.  The fact that He was speaking these words as He was ALSO telling the disciples of VERY HARD things to come has been a great comfort to me as I confront the enemies of Peace in my heart, from both within and without.  His Peace has become more real then ever to me (as in attainable) and I find myself running after it and thirsting for it moment by moment.  There are SO many WONDERFUL promises for His Peace all through the Word…I want them all!

I thought about that as I looked around the train the other morning on the way to work.  I guess it was Friday morning as I catch the 5:55 a.m. train then to stop at the shuk for some fresh produce before Shabat and then run over to IFI prayer meeting to join in on the first half hour before again running off to work.

On Friday morning at that hour the train is pretty empty and so I was looking around at the car.  Just such a short time ago these train cars were brand new, and they HAVE been kept up well, especially considering how many PEOPLE they transport daily, except for the windows.  The windows are large, shatter-proof, possibly bullet-proof, glass. Yet nearly every one has been shattered by stones thrown regularly as it passes through the eastern side of our capital, Jerusalem.  Some of the windows sport a sign in Hebrew, Arabic and English that says: “We are sorry for the inconvenience.  This window will be replaced as soon as possible.”

Others sport a star in the corner made by a marker pointing out that, yes, it is cracked and needs to be replaced.  As I counted, I saw that probably 70% of the windows were marked for replacing.  I ran my fingers over the one that I was sitting beside.  It had obviously been hit by a large rock.  I could feel the disruption in the glass and was thankful for the technology that enabled the use of such a strong substance, none the less, some HAVE been injured in these regular incidents.

I thought about the peace of God again, and am thankful that I can honestly say that I do not have fear about these things.  I trust The Holy Spirit to lead me in the path that He has for me – either way He chooses.  I also see that one of the major aims of terror is to inflict fear and wear down the heart and will of people. Thank You, Lord, for The PEACE of God that passes all understanding and that keeps our hearts and minds in YOU.

I think of His Peace too as my poor, tortured neighbor stomps out her rage at us over our heads.  What a GIFT His PEACE is for us.

AND I think about His Peace again as I see the great divide forming across the earth, country to country. The hatred and rage between the left and the right politically and the way it is working itself out.  It was very interesting to see a replay of our elections in the UK.  It does seem as if a strange, but apparently failing, manipulation of the media, particularly the press, has been going on.  It appears to me that the rage and abuse of one side only drove the other side into a place quiet enough so that the pollsters couldn’t get a view of what people were REALLY thinking.

I know that I heard that over and again here from those who planned to vote for Netanyahu for well thought out and real reasons. They did not want to take the verbal abuse and mockery thrown at them by the opposing side and so said nothing.  Apparently the UK has seen something similar.  Whatever it is, it is embarrassing to hear our opposition working overtime, fueled by pure rage, to already bring down our newly forming government.  It is exhausting and sad, BUT FOR HIS PEACE.

And in the midst…in the midst of war on each of our borders, and in the midst of awful things being spoken about us and to us, THE LORD IS BUILDING HIS TEMPLE, HIS BODY IN THE MIDST OF IT ALL!  Yes He is…and it is glorious!  I guess it is because His ways really ARE far about our ways and His thoughts also so much higher!

It will be JERUSALEM DAY next Sunday: a day that I love.  Knowing the Scriptures makes this day all the more special.  Each year there are threats of hatred by those who hate that Jerusalem is again Israel, but this is God’s work and God’s hand. And we know that God is not beloved by the world nor are His plans. So it is a great privilege to be able to choose to stand with His plans and purposes for this land and people.

It may NOT appeal to our flesh always, but isn’t that what walking with Him is all about: choosing His way, His Word, His Heart, His choices. And so this city will celebrate the GIFT of Jerusalem!  There will be dancing in the streets and all the way down to the Western Wall.  Perhaps some of you remember the day that once again, after 2,000 years, the entire people were allowed to enter her gates, to come into her midst and to go to the Western Wall of the temple to pray.  One day HE will be revealed as Who He IS to the entire people…maybe today!

To see the story of the reunification of Jerusalem, click here.

God bless you,

your sis J

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Memories Pizza, Indiana, Christianity, And How Not to Win Spiritual Battles (Part 10)

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After finishing His sermon on the mount, Jesus walked among the crowds of people. A leper appeared from the crowd, bowed before Him, worshipped Him, and said, “If You’re willing, You can make me clean.”

Jesus reached out with His hand and touched the leper, saying, “I am willing; be cleansed.” The leper was healed.

Wait! What’s wrong with this story?

Jesus and the leper were both Jewish and followers of the Law. Thus, the leper should have been many, many yards away from everyone. His clothes should have been torn, his head bare, his robe should have been held up by one hand to cover his mouth and mustache, and he should have warned all by only saying, “Unclean! Unclean! Unclean!”

Also, Jesus should not have touched the leper because He then would be unclean until sundown or required to undergo a ceremonial washing.

But because Jesus cleansed the leper by healing him, Jesus did not break the Law.

Gays, lesbians, transgenders, and so forth are today’s lepers.

How many times did Jesus rebuke the leper for sinning against the Law? None. Did He refuse to honor the leper’s request because of the man’s sin? No. Did Jesus point out the man’s sin? No. Did Jesus mention He was offended or say something stupid like, “I love the sinner, but hate his sin?” No.

Then, why should we Christian business people act any different than our Lord did with the leper.

You see, we Christian business people need examples of how to win spiritual battles. Who’s better than Jesus?

The #2 Rule in Spiritual Warfare: run toward the battle with healing and compassion in your hearts.

(Continued in Part 11)

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Thursday’s Prayers for America (5/14/2015)

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All of us — believers or unbelievers — have a gigantic “I told you so” inside of us that wants to jump out when people, who we’ve warned ahead of time, go through tough struggles. It’s a part of our inner nature, maybe even embedded in our DNA, and desires to spew in their faces, “I told you so. Why didn’t you listen to me?”

Why are we like this?

Truthfully, we don’t love them that much because if we did, we would be crushed when they suffer trials. We would weep with them while they wept. We would not parade ourselves in front of them or boast about our wisdom beforehand. We would offer them the one thing that never fails: our love.

All of us need to deal with our “I told you so’s” now so that they don’t hinder the Lord’s work if bad things occur in America sometime in the future.

Today, I prayed:

Lord, give us Americans the same love that You gave the Apostle Paul which caused him to wish he were cut off from You if it would save his brothers according to the flesh. (Based on Romans 9:3)

What do you think and has the Lord spoken to you?

Join with me on Thursdays to fast and pray for America.

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Tuesday’s Prayers for Prisoners (5/12/2015)

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Each Tuesday, I pray and fast for the nations of Asia, where 4.4 billion people live. 

Why Asia?

1. 85.4% of world’s unevangelized people live in Asia. (Unevangelized means they may have heard the gospel but have no understanding on how to respond.)

2. The world’s three largest non-Christian religions – Muslim, Hindu, and Buddhists – are based in Asia.

3. Of the 37 countries of the world that are less than 10% Christian, 32 are in Asia. Of the 14 countries, that are less than 2% Christian, 12 are in Asia.

4. 85-90% of unreached people live in Asia. (Unreached means that they have never heard the name of Jesus.) (Operation World: The Definitive Prayer Guide to Every Nation)

A long time ago, I learned that I’m not God or Jesus or the Holy Spirit, which means it’s not up to me to make my prayers for Asia work. It’s up to God to fulfill them. All I have to do is follow the instructions outlined in the Bible.

So Jesus answered and said to them, “Have faith in God. For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. (Mark 11:22-24)

This is one of those blank check prayer instructions, which depends on faith in God and forgiving people.

Are you with me so far?

Now, I want to couple the above prayer instructions with:

Again I say to you that if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by My Father in heaven. (Matthew 18:19)

Okay, this is where you come into the picture, agree with me on my prayer for today.

Today, I prayed:

Lord, I pray that not one person in India or all of Asia will slip through the cracks of Eternity without first hearing Your name, and secondly, having a chance to say “yes” to Your salvation plan and Your kingdom purposes.

Join with me on Tuesdays to fast and pray for prisoners, according to Hebrews 13:3.

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Honoring Ruth

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My mom, Ruth Nevenhoven, died almost a year ago at ninety years of age. She was a graduate of the “old school” of motherhood right up to her last breath, in that her life revolved around her two children, five grandchildren, and her great-grandchildren. Family always came first in Mom’s life.

“Honor your father and mother,” which is the first commandment with promise: that it may be well with you and you may live long on the earth. (Ephesians 6:2-3)

Okay, how can I honor my mother now?

I could place a bouquet of Mom’s favorite flowers on her grave for Mothers Day. This is a traditional way of honoring mothers here in America, letting everyone know how much I appreciated what she meant to me.

Yet, Carol and I decided not to follow the traditional paths for honoring Mom.

Instead, we chose to sponsor a Bridge of Hope child who was born on Mom’s birthday, January 9‎th. The little girl’s name is Stuti and she lives in Rajasthan, India. Like most Bridge of Hope children, her parents are poor and members of one of the “untouchable” castes.

It’s my belief that Mom walks around heaven, showing everyone pictures of her children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, and a little girl named Stuti. I can almost hear her say, “Stuti is the smartest, prettiest, best, little girl in all of South Asia. I love her and thinks she’s the cat’s meow.”

If this is something that you might consider for honoring your mother, you can check it out at Gospel For Asia’s Bridge of Hope, by clicking here.

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The Rumors of Larry’s Death Were Not Greatly Exaggerated (Part 10)

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Twenty years ago, if you would have asked, “What will you say when your publishing company is successful?”

I would have quickly answered by singing a Toby Keith song: “How do you like me now? Now that I’m on my way. Do you still think I’m crazy, standing here today? I couldn’t make you love me, but I always dreamed about…How do you like me now?”

You see, when you’re walking through the wildernesses designed just for you by God, there’s not a lot of people who believe in you because of your mistakes and how unsuccessful you appear to them. If you bother to mention your dreams to others, you invite ridicule and the inevitable questions: “How?” and “When?”

And all you can do is shrug your shoulders at their queries.

But in all this, you have to hold onto the promises given to you by God. You can’t ever let go of them. Each day, you must thank the Lord for your publishing company and your promises being fulfilled, even if you’re sleeping in a car and eating out of dumpsters. Walking by faith is not an easy path for anyone.

So, for a major part of my journey through the wilderness, I kept going for one major reason: the desire to prove my worth to others. I wanted to show them that I heard God’s voice and that He honored me for my perseverance.

Today, if you asked me the same question, I would answer, “It was by His grace and I deserve no credit for any success.”

Somehow, in the wilderness, it no longer became about me and my quest, it became all about Him.

(Continued in Part 11)

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